After working 1 year into evil empire I realize today if I would born for this kind of work , then better to die early with Rest In peace Sign on grave .I always try to work hard with my passion and my knowledge which I got from school and colleges( formerly all were called educational temple )
Sure I can accomplish all the stuff that is asked of me but instead of doing it with my heart, I do it with my brain.
Most people would probably say, “It’s work…you’re supposed to use your brain right?” True, but I’ve always wanted to do something that would also fill my heart with joy. I’m not a robot you know. Yes, the evil empire is very generous and money is abundant and it’s all good and very much appreciated but…and this may sound very cliché…but I feel there’s something missing. Perhaps some may think, “How can you say that when you earn so much already?!” Like I said, I’m very thankful and grateful for the material blessings but I honestly would give it up if I were to do something that I know would truly make me happy.
I still get days here where it’s just nothing…and I’ll go about my day just thinking about surviving until the weekend comes (screaming “freedom!” ala Braveheart)…and then certain days will come when you just want to scream out, “Get me the outta here!”–especially when you work too damn hard and then people still expect you to grow 10 extra arms so that you can cater to all their other insignificant / personal needs. I know my friend and I always joke that we’re just “slaves” but it’s not really funny when you’re living it.
I don’t have any solutions yet. All I know is that I should be wise with my earnings now.